GOD AND A DROP OF OIL

COVER

2005-02-28T00:39:00.000-08:00

CHARBEL BAINI

GOD AND A DROP OF OIL

Translated from Arabic into English by:
MAHA A. BECHARA

COPYRIGHT 1997

WE WILL NOT MARTYR

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WE WILL NOT MARTYR

They kill the people and say:
They have become martyrs...
Their names are written with light,
Their age is vowed to their country,
Their death... What death!?...
They sang for it...
To become a mother's joy
For a false word...
Who still doesn't understand.

Please, Our Maker..
Separate between the tyrant
And the tyrannised,
Between who is strangling us with his hand
And who is wiping off our blood.
We were born so that we could live,
Dawn will come out of our eyes
Shining the world in the betrayal of night
And from its tomb
It will rise again..

Their lie is much more
Than You could imagine,
You can see it on their lips
Yellow,
Dry like a curse
Waiting for ears
To get drunk on its wine.
Their lie...
From the beginning was a "dealer"
His deals will never lose,
A builder...
His houses are tombs,
We are paying him for them
But they were built from our skulls.

We were born to glorify Your name
And drew a picture of You
As big as the world,
Staring at it without fatigue.
And You take us in Your dream
So we can grow bigger...
Till we become hoary..
Children are playing around us
With love,
Goodness and feeling,
Not one Judas
Can come near them
To fill up his cup with their blood
To wither their golden bunch.

We will not let our present and future
Be wasted together.
And those who were born of our flanks
We will not send them to death as a gift
For the leaders
To be more powerful,
For their dirty politics
And their large vaults
That are full of money
Jewels,
Young girls,
And men were castrated on a morning.

It was too late for us to learn
How to resist a criminal temper!...
How to wipe off the black word
In the darkness of the night!...
But when they require more martyrs
For their great high rank...
We will stand against them face to face,
Holding a poisoned sword in our hands
To cut off their necks and say:
"O God...No more pity".

In the name of religion
We have been deceived by evil men
They said: "We are holy men"
It's impossible for devils to go to heaven.
O God..
Our problem is..
We always believe what they say,
Your Book is held in their hands
And we do dignify Your Books.
But in the same vessel
We will give them more,
We will judge them
Because in Your name
They slaughtered brains,
So we could grow up to be proud of You.

We don't want to martyr...
We want to die the way
You choose for us,
Only You can help us
To annihilate some traitors...
Every time we get along
They separate us..
Their hell
Makes us forget the real hell.
What are they?!...
A gang..
Proud of its shame?!..
They opened a bank in our temple
And changed our country into a brothel.

The death which is called " destiny"
Occurred under Your command,
Whenever history is slashed
We will find more mysteries:
Governors inheriting governors,
Regime dominating other regimes,
Castles are foddering some men,
Masters full of lies,
But who defended to save his country
From the colonist...
Became a forgettable song
A word with unmentionable memory.
.. And the enemy whom he was fighting,
Became the governors of his country
.. And the people
Which he martyred his blood for them
To accomplish their dreams
Became servants for the enemies.

Not every martyrdom can be truly called...
Or should be consecrated...
Like, the mother who died
When her family was threatened by evil
Like, who gave the world the light
To rub off the gloominess
With their words
And like, who were crucified coercively
By Lucifer..
To execute his rules.

We are passing away
But everything is staying behind:
The house...
The decorated land with creeks,
The borders which have been drawn on paper
To separate a unified humanity
In a world..
Will inoculate human kind forever.

We will always be brothers
No matter how far, is the distance,
Our " seed " is very well known.
Why do I need the power
Against brothers
They used to be on my side
Before, they followed their self interests
And their days have beaten my days.
I left them behind...
They forgot me...
The perplexity was confused between us.
And the time was representing them
Like enemies in front of me.

I won't kill my brother with my own hand
Nor carry his blood on my shoulders.
O God...
I want to spread a new idea:
" He who will martyr in a world
Based, from the beginning, on a lie
Will be wasting his life".

********

THE FIRST WORD

I am standing in front of You
To revise my steps of the past,
And count my sins
Which I didn't know that I had committed..
I've got eyes on my face
But I can't see...
You did not enlighten
The darkness of my days.
I lived with fear all this life
Of You...
Of myself...
Of the people...
And of Your commandments...
Which I have never forgotten.

You are fair...
Save me ...
I was born weak
And You are strong.
I am a tiny person...
Forgive me,
You hold in Your hand
Everything I possess
The sea,
The earth,
The heaven,
The love,
The hatred,
The justice
And the grievance...
You always know what I do
Before it happens
So do not oppress me
Let me walk the way of piety.

I love You...
No matter how many mistakes I make.
I love You...
No matter how mad the night will go.
I love You...
Walking over my steps.
I love You...
A laughter
A smile
And hands hiding my shame
Consoling me when I cry,
You are the most beautiful line
On my life's pages,
You are the first word
That I have ever heard
And still resounding in my ears.

I can not survive without You,
You are my unchanging friend
I pinned You as feathers on my wings..
Since I was a baby,
I went looking for Your love
To clear up this life.
O God!...
Make me live poorly
And don't let me love
The wealth of this world.
Without standing on Your side,
No one can reach the real wealth.

********

CONDEMN THEM

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CONDEMN THEM

I drew a picture for You in my eyes,
More beautiful than the world,
I've hidden You in my heart,
And burnt my heart as incense for You...
With Your stars,
You have changed the darkness
Of my days into light,
To shine and sparkle everywhere...
You are eternal,
Change me...
Make me a bird...
So I can fly to Your paradise
And live Your love...
O Jesus!...
Only You,
Can wash the sins away.

You are the baby
Who is born,
In a cave...
And the night is torn
By its offenses ...
With the street people groaning at night ...
With the matured wine...
Let the sun shine more tomorrow
Let the prairie speak to the lily
And let my country be free of agony and pain,
Let it live in the blue atmosphere, in peace...
You are the Son of glory and power,
Don't let my country die!...
Save it...
Let it be born with Your nascence.

Only You can help us...
Save us...
From disasters that keep hitting us,
From war destroying and separating people,
Who have sold their religion.
Do not leave them..
Renew their faith with Your compassion...
And take them to Your haven of love...
You're greater than a master...
O God...
You are fraternising with us...
Take the black times away from us,
From this earth...
Where the evils are playing around.

We didn't know that life was too short,
And that our end will never change,
Till we planted the lie...
And let the black evil go higher and higher...
Everywhere we look with our eyes,
We see the white colour turning into red,
We are hopeless...
Help us...
Save us from the Big Monster...
Which is chopping off our hands...
Which is taking away the peoples' lives
To become inebriated from their blood.

There's no life without You,
O...Son of Mary,
The world is without a faith,
‎The world is dominated by apes.
You, who decorated the universe
And created the people
With different skin colours
To prevail in equality...
And get the colours mixed,
But they hated You...
They hated the purpose,
They became shy of the human colour
And killed each other intentionally
Red,
White,
Yellow and black.

..That girl who You created
And planted life in her womb
To become a mother ...
Joining her family under her wings..
She became a piece of merchandise,
Selling herself.
... And that man
Who You gave the key of life,
So he could give birth to a new generation,
He became a drug pusher
A pleasure seller
To test his poison.
On his children.

I loved You...
Without seeing You...
You were the spirit in my body,
Living in my heart beat
In the vitality
In the strong arm...
Send me to sleep
And make me rise as a sun
In the darkness of the oppressive nights,
So the people with melted candles,
Can take the light off me...
Then..
I will deface graves
And illuminate places.

Let me walk on Your way
By myself,
Which will take me to Your love.
Your men were numerous...
But they got reduced to few
When they walked the stages
Of Your crucifixion...
... And the religion
Which You have drawn
To take Your people to heaven...
They sold it..
And they pretended
That they were praying.
Condemn them all
Without pity...
They all pierced Your heart
With a spear.

********

NEW CANDLES

Let me stand
On the affliction's borders...
Carrying the light
In my hand...
Perhaps the darkness of the night
Could steal new candles of my light.

Plant me on the edges of the days
A flower...
And submerge me in the colour
So I can colour in all the dreams,
Which are passing in the eyes of the world.

Make me a story scribbled by Your hand...
So people can tell it to each other
Splashing it on their lips
Like the wine without a cup.

O God...
What is passing through my life today
Will not come back tomorrow,
So do not forget me in a torn past
Dress me " the present "...
To shine
And shine..

Throw me into a forgettable world
So I can brush off its dust
And plant it in a beautiful song
Which fell off the bird's beak.

And in the drowsy hours
Blow me as a wind
As a lightning...
Perhaps the hours will run fast
Through me
Till they reach the Eastern Countries.

Create me a butterfly in the sky
Carrying the human worries on its wings,
So I can burn myself with a light
And after death..
I will come back alive.

********

CONFESSION

He was praying alone
With his tears flooding over his cheeks,
I started filling up my ears with his words
Which were saying:

- To tell You that I'm not a sinner...
I am a sinner
The lowliness is pricking my bones,
And behind my days
I am hiding myself
But my days are ashamed of me.

- When I speak ...
I don't respect my words,
I cheer up when the evil is all around
And I always prepare my moments
To get drunk on tears and blood.

- For stealing...
I should have my hands cut off
And thrown in fire,
My eyes should be switched off
Because I've hidden the shame in my eyes.

- O God!...
My black lies cannot be counted,
I'm going to destroy this world
And this world
Still can not control my desperate acts.

Suddenly...
He raised his voice and said:
- Human still a human,
He keeps on collecting money till he drops
And finally he goes to You... NAKED.

Then I said to myself:
Who is the greatest?...
The conceited religious man
Or this regretful man
Who is going to change
His darkness into light.

*******

THEY LOST YOU

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THEY LOST YOU

Look at them...
You will only see deceit in their eyes
Shiver in their hands.
And towards hell
They walked in lines,
Yes..
With their religious clothes on.

They are the curse...
They are the lie...
Their vile acts are too many,
They were born...
But without a heart,
And not for being a spectacle to look at,
They replaced the heart with a sponge
No one would dare to squeeze it.

They forgot that their end is soon
And their ages are shorter than a second,
They forgot that the person who isn't aware
Of that terminal point...
Will cry at the end.
They have lost our love...
They have lost You, which is worse
Because You don't complain...
You don't speak.

I know that whatever I write against them,
Between them..
There are still good people,
They lived as reformers on this earth,
Their target was to beat the devil,
Their destination was to help humanity,
Which is desperate to find in them ,
The goodness,
The holiness
And the faith.
Then..
O God..
I wish to become a mole on their cheek,
To be stuck to them,
So my heart can be filled,
With their floral smell.

********

WORDS

1
Mohammed who was a scream of love
And his prophecy was a feeling,
An intuition...
They explained his words:
Jihad
Holy war
And people killing people.
Sheiks having inside of them
Lies, hatred and discrimination.
They changed the Koran
To a law serving a political group,
And made money bags
Out of the Koran's papers.

2
They are carrying big crosses
On their chests..
To hide their bad acts
Underneath
Away from the eyes of the people.

3
The crown of Jesus was made of thistle,
The blood was all over His Holy Head,
They burnt the thistle and said:
" The clergymen should have
Diamond crowns instead ".

4
The earth is the earth,
In length and width,
But the holy people are still waiting
For a land which has the manna,
The munificence and the generosity.
Hands creating art,
Building plains and mountains
To bring back the Jews!!...

5
Why is religion changing its way?!...
And the religious men tiring of Your ways?!..
They have chosen to follow You
And they became scared
Of being crucified like You.

6
Praise be with You...
O Father..
Your work tells about You,
If the malady is very dangerous
You can cure the weak, ill body,
With a drop of water...
And a small plant.

Every rock that You have planted on earth,
Has a hammer and a lever beside it.
And every neck that You lifted up,
You have lowered before.
And the family that You have united in a house,
Later, You separated its members
To go through plains and mountains.
What a life!..
You have created it Your way,
Brothers go against each other,
And enemies reunite as one family.

7
Those friends that I've always loved,
And I gave them my tears to drink,
They left me alone hung by my tongue,
They laughed at me..
At my sadness,
Then they pierced my heart
where I used to hide them...

I carried them as a smile on my face,
I took care of them like a mother,
I breast fed them...
But they bit my breasts,
And on my thirsty days
They gave me poison from their own hands.

O God!...
Help me please...
Help me to find the person
Who can make me very happy,
Who can make me see You in his eyes
Opening Your hands for me,
To take me away..
.. Away from everyone..

*******

I FOUND YOU, LOVE

I don't know what to say to You
You're always on my tongue..
Every idea that I'm thinking of,
Every word that I'm publishing
You have possessed
All their scripts.

They told me
That You are not compassionate
And more oppressive
Than any oppressors.
But when I associated with You...
I found You, love
And all their words are only lies
Then I began dreaming
Of Your paradise.

They told me that You are Christian,
Muslim,
Your Book is the Koran..
Jewish,
Your people have been chosen
But when I associated with You
Everything changed in my essential faith.

I found You...
All of them, in one,
Balancing between the religions.
And I saw them covetous
To get Your love..
Thinking that their Book
Is the key to Your heart
But they are still quarreling together.

You're the God
Who's giving hand
To each person on this land
Except the fanatical one..
Because whatever he is bigoted with You,
He will stay a swamp of crimes and hatred.

Let us be brothers in this world
Living together in harmony
Power will come out of our love
And every time You bless it with Your hand
All the religions will melt away
To be unified as one.

*******

MY FRIENDS

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MY FRIENDS

I've given my hand to my friends,
Who came to me
And stood at my doors,
I thought they knew that I consecrated my friends,
O God...
In one moment they've eaten me,
And they have thrown my bones in the forest.

When You see their faces
For the first time..
Your eyes show the feelings of happiness
Because of their form.
You can read love between the lines
That could never be there without You,
But suddenly they float in Your mind,
To play on the strings of Your madness.

All they wanted was to take my money,
And I've never hidden any money,
Their relief was giving me happiness,
Their poverty was demolishing me,
What a shame!...
They destroyed me...
When I gave them peace of minds.

They are liars...
They tell You about the humanity's truthfulness,
To inspire You with their lies
That they are a flame of the faith
But in a twinkling of an eye...
They'll trap You ...
..... And what it was, it was !!...

This world is full of thieves,
They were named "friends" spuriously,
I've tried to light their lamps but they became dim,
Their hearts were full of darkness which we despised,
They stole me and they desecrated the holy words,
Which have been written for a long time.

I believed them ...
But the ropes of the lie
Were prepared for me secretly
In a tree
Which they have named "Friendship",
Its leaves were always pale,
I watered it with the blood of my heart,
The tree absorbed my blood ...
But my heart became pale.

I'm not scared of them...
I am not scared...
My fingernails can reach their eyes,
Can chop off the high nose,
Which is like a curse underneath their horns,
Which is like a pile on cracked lips...
Because of their dishonesty.

They didn't know that their loss is bigger,
And with my death, their stomachs will be empty,
Because the one who eats a morsel,
Unlike the one who eats more and more,
And the friendship which has been killed by a grudge,
Could never be rekindled.

They didn't know
That on judgment day,
Their punishment will be miserable
And their last stop
Will be in front of You..
Your judgment does not need any explanation,
And he who betrays his friends
Will be thrown in the fire of purification.

They didn't know that my death,
Would make me come back as a giant...
With a brilliant laugh,
And my faith is much stronger
In a person who does not kneel
But for You..
O God...
Every time, a love dies,
We will collect newborn love on its end.

The people of the ominous lie,
Who named them Friends?!...
No priest is serving in a church,
No sheik is administering
Extreme unction to a swindler.
O God...
The criminal intent
Can not be forgiven in any Book.

*********

THE FUTURE OF MY DAYS

I don't want to interfere with them,
I don't want to approach You by mediation,
You don't only listen to them
And You don't accept down payment.
Saints!!...
We've heard of them,
We will strive to be like them,
To become part of them.
Standing beside You,
Shining..
Near You the candle never melts.

I don't want to covet in heaven,
I only want to be with You,
So Your lights will shine out of me,
To make me as a sun...
I feel very happy
Every time I sing Your name
And the world changes into a wedding.
I know that You will never leave me,
Only You..
The future of my days
And the others just a memory of the past.

They will say that I'm an atheist
Tell them...
The atheists are not like that,
The one who is waiting for Your blessing,
You will not send him to hell.
O God!...
You are always traveling in my mind,
Without You, there is no mind,
You are the sufficient active brain,
Who could create me in many shapes,
And then erase me in one day.

Help me...
Help me more
To change all the people.
To call Allah The Great,
To make the sign of the cross..
O God...
Help me to call for prayer,
With the enlightened dawn,
Help me to serve Your mass
And make the colour melt down.
Help me to stand on the rostrum,
Holding all Your Books in my hands,
I want to unify the universe with Your Books.

********

YOU ARE EVERYTHING

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YOU ARE EVERYTHING

I can see You in a cave
And the animals kneeling down,
All around You, to warm You,
But those, who You made
As a mole on Your cheek...
They cut the trees that You created, for them,
To use their wood to crucify You.

I can see You growling in the temple
And hitting the thieves with a whip,
To renew the world with faith,
Which now becomes
Burning candles
And learning words.

I can see You standing on the Jordan riverside,
Blessing and baptising the people,
But some of those that You have baptised,
Still squeezing the dirt of the earth
To get out the wine,
And fill up the cups.

I can see You raising Your hand,
To heal the subdued blind man
And open his eyes to give him sight,
But after You've changed his blindness into light
He killed the light.

I can see You with the people,
When hunger was all around,
And there were only a few fish...
So they called You to stop their starvation,
But when they were satisfied...
They uttered many unspeakable things about You.

I've heard You saying to them:
"Love one another
And be the pure salt of this earth".
But when You finished speaking,
They swore at Your words,
Because the unvirtuous
Was walking unshod towards them.

I've heard You saying to them:
"Go in peace and knock on all the doors,
Even the unknockable ones...
Keep following my path...
I don't want you to get lost..."
But when You left them...
They got lost...
And they strangled the voice of righteousness
With their lies.

I've heard You saying to them:
"Blessed be all who have a good heart,
Pure white as snow..."
They thought that the time for Your sunset was over,
So they've tarred their hearts with sins
And hidden them in their pockets.

In front of the Jews
Which were screaming to crucify You,
Pilate revealed his faith
And Saint Peter denied You
Because he was scared of crucifixion.

"These are your children".
You said to Your Mother, Mary
And You were pointing out to us.
But when You died
We drank Your blood,
We stole Your clothes to sell them
And in every square
We auctioned You.

At last,
When the stone rolled away,
I saw You..
Coming out
Walking on the past and the future,
So all the people get to know
That "YOU ARE EVERYTHING ".

*******

MYTHS

They want me to believe,
The story of Adam and Eve.
But who searches and scrutinises,
In the trueness of this story,
Which played with the human mind,
Will not ask God to have mercy
Upon their dead.

They want me to say:
"Moses opened the sea
And let people...
Chickens and calves go across,
And saved his people from Pharaoh.
I'm begging You my God...
The monitor of this world,
Why did You create some people
With small brains?!...
They always think that You are an oppressor,
And that You hold a sword of fire,
To kill all kinds of people on earth
Except the chosen people.

They want me to go and tell
The story of the dragon
Who kept on killing women
Till You sent the best Knight.
But why was he only killing women?!...
O God ...
That is the secret of this lie.

If I only have patience to count
The Myths that we are following,
In between serio-comic...
You will block Your ears my God
And You will say to Yourself:
It is a shame for the Faithful
To believe in Myths.

*******

YOU'RE EVERLASTING

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YOU'RE EVERLASTING

I've heard people remonstrating against You,
For holding the sword of death in Your hands,
I beg You God..
Kill me..
Take me to your paradise today,
Accept me as a guest.

You have been merciful towards the people,
When You saved them from an unknown world,
Full of mysteries...
They walk and walk and walk
But they remain in their places.

They're having fun in their suffering,
They're pretending their suffering is a joy.
They inherited Adam's place,
Without tasting the apple.

You created the earth in the image of heaven,
They adored the picture but hated the reality,
O God...
You're always alive in my heart,
Give me peace of mind,
And hide me in Your divine eyes.

All the people who died before me were relieved,
They passed away with a smile,
We did not miss them when they left,
Because their days entered the complete stage.

You're everlasting
And we are traversal
In front of Your eyes,
O God...
I'm not reaping my age by pilfering,
I have grown Your words in my heart.

I've read the Torah and the New Testament
And the verses of the Holy Koran,
I found You an impartial scale,
Whatever the people try to bluff.

*******

SMALL BRAINS

" Listen to their words ", You said,
And we truly listened to them,
But we can not accept their deeds,
We will not keep silent
Dear Jesus,
They are trying to disgrace Your words.

The army of the pity...What a pity!...
They made fun of both of us,
They spread out the grudge in this world,
They grow viciousness in people's hearts,
And they forbid that pity to come to You.

We became scared of You ...
Because of their acts,
We were frightened to follow Your path,
They did not care, for they're Your men,
They pierced You with the spear of venom
And they drank Your blood on the Altar.

You can see the jealousy in their eyes,
Black as the darkness of the night,
And You feel shy of their artistic acts,
When You see one of them,
Racing his colleague for a cent.

You can see the curse on their lips,
Swinging day and night,
Boasting of their big shoulders,
Proud of the big size of their skulls,
Which are bigger than a cooking pot,
But they have tiny brains.

Not all of them...
Please don't condemn me,
For this ugly image that I have given You,
You know much better than me,
But the word in my heart
Will burn my heart,
If I don't let it out.

********

THE PROPHET

I've always knelt down in your hassock
And you've always granted my demand,
You are the words that I hear all the time,
You are the honest and the purest Prophet...
O Mohammed...
I am living with you and my feelings too,
Your love grows stronger in my heart,
I will never lose you,
You are the faith of my religion.

Please let me complain about the clique,
Who have been obtaining your yield,
If my heart will not speak out
It will refuse your call.
You lived modestly, very poorly...
And the kingdom,
That you have built with your faith,
Became very complicated after you...
Devils were playing with it
And thieves were asking your sanctuary.

*******

BETWEEN HELL AND HEAVEN

I extended my hand to You my Lord,
With my address embroidered on my palm
And a picture of my eyes and my heart,
With lots of words on my tongue...
Do not return them...
Take them with Your hand
Bless them...
Make them a trust, a consignment...
Tomorrow on Your Feast Day,
My faith will shine brightly out of my hand.

Tomorrow...
And the distance of tomorrow
Is an age hanging on Your doorstep..
A beginning..
With a well known ending..
A dust knocking on Your doors,
Endow my hand with the truth
And let it search in Your Book,
Trying to collect their words
And then deleting them,
They lied to the people in Your absence.

Some of them said that in hell,
The evils will make us suffer,
But we are suffering now
And we don't know to whom this earth belongs..
I came to it forcibly,
Carrying years on my shoulders,
It's impossible for it to be a heaven
And all its angels are insane.

Some of them said that in heaven,
We will find bundles of goodness everywhere,
And young girls brighter than the sun,
Innocence did not meet any man;
If heaven is only pleasure and enjoyment,
Then let me tell You:
It is unavailing to obtain the deliverance of the spirit,
When heaven is full of sex and money.

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GOD AND A DROP OF OIL

2005-02-28T00:15:00.000-08:00

GOD AND A DROP OF OIL

Please don't be sad,
O God !..
Because many people are really mad,
They ring their lying bells
For a statue they have created
The oil is seeping from its plaster
Then Your convent becomes a "house",
Women burning incense for religion.

Your love is the purest love,
Becoming a deal in a secular auction,
And vows for mad people.
O God!...
What happened?!.
They can see You only in a drop of oil,
They forgot that You are...God
And that You have made them all
In silence,
Yes..
You have created the whole world.

They did not see You in the cedars of God,
Years have died at its feet,
Many people slept calmly in its shade,
Many people sang for it,
From all their hearts...

They did not walk on the way,
That takes them to Sannine
Or to Baalbeck...
Don't get upset ...They are naive,
They only see You in miracles,
Forgive them..
They crucified You...
And they cried afterward ...
But those who are like me
Always love You ...
Because You're a Father,
Wider than paradise is Your heart.

They didn't notice the earth turn
And its speed appear to stop,
The stars were obliged
To open a light balcony in the darkness,
And keep shining all the time...
Forgive me please if I say :
Naive is he who believes in a drop of oil...
Lamps...
Fairy tales...
And drumbeats.
You are the breadth and the width,
The generation creating another generation,
Spaces and distances we pass by,
And good seeds that we are planting,
You are living in our hearts...
But killed by some miracles
If You see them,
You will laugh and laugh,
For they are only lies.

You created the sun...
With your light they could see,
You created the night...
They were frightened by the darkness,
You created the sea ...
They floated upon Your waves,
But they are still making fun of You,
You are the eternal God,
You are the partner for lonely people.
They are very poor without You,
But we are always meeting You
In the smallest creatures of the world,
In the overflowing colours of a flower,
In the songs of a bird,
In the energy of a bee,
In the breath which is coming out of me,
In the growth of a baby living here,
In the day that is followed by another,
In the seasons after season,
In the way which a man is walking along,
And brains are planning his way.
As much as they pray for You...
Do not believe them my Lord,
They mocked You,
Do not mature their wines
Their wine is full of faults and lies.

Everything You've created tells about You,
About Your love,
Your laughter
Your open hands,
And Your goodness overflowing,
You're the tree on top of the hill,
You're the wheat in the ant hill.
You're always here alive with us,
You are born in a heart beat..
In a lily..
We do not need miracles to pray,
We believe in You very deeply,
With every sunset,
We feel so desperate to have your dream,
You're the dream that is coming true.

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SINS

I'm hiding lots of things in my heart,
I expel them,
But after a while they return to me.
Please ... Answer me God..
Those mistakes that we have forgotten,
And by the good hearted have been made,
Are You going to presume that as a sin?

Those people who fell in love,
They were in a very bad situation,
Because some religious matters oppressed them.
What is going to happen to them?
And You created desire, born in their bodies
Like an inaudible scream...
Are You going to presume that as a sin?

That mother whose husband is a gambler,
She does not see him till the next morning,
Her children are dying of hunger;
To feed them,
She opened the house door,
To foulness and whoredom.
Are You going to presume that as a sin?

The man whose right has gone,
In this materialistic life,
He saw one day a loaf of bread,
He stole it...
Not to accumulate improper money,
But to feed only himself.
Are You going to presume that as a sin?

The people who have so many wolves
And thieves grasping at their homes,
It is not an offense!...
If they get rid of the enemy,
By killing them on their doorsteps.
Are You going to presume that as a sin?.

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PAGANISM

2005-02-28T00:12:00.000-08:00

PAGANISM

O God, Maker of the whole world,
All Your creations have been made through Yourself,
You are incarnate in many things,
Which can be understandable for humans.

People adored the sun but You were the light,
People adored the star but You were just behind.
You blessed the moon with Your hand,
To brighten the lovers' night.

They adored the bull, for he is big,
For its good and healthy meat.
They adored the fire sparkles
In the air...
To make a volcano.

They adored the dawn to wipe off the night,
They adored the unseen on the other side.
When a disaster struck them,
They resorted to the other idols.

They all knew You through Your creations,
Even without seeing You.
They all adored Things to adore You,
Without preaching of religions.

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NUN

The nun who is related to God,
Has to be shy of His Holiness ...
Has to be away from desire,
Which is denied in heaven.

She must create angels on her palm,
To be proud of herself,
So when, people come to her,
With tears in their eyes,
She can relax their minds,
With one word.

The convent that she has chosen,
She must consecrate its sanctity,
And keep its page always white,
So when You decide to come,
The violet smell spreads out,
From her pure white dress.

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JEWS, CHRISTIANS AND ISLAM

Whenever jealousy knocks on my doors
I will not open them..
O God!...
Whenever desire seduces my youthfulness,
I will exchange it with a word of love,
Even if they throw me away in the forest,
Full of unfairness, hatred and lies,
I will only read my book,
In which You, have written its letters,
Perhaps I could be baptised by crucifixion.

I don't want my angels to say:
This is one of the millions..
Who chose a candle as tall as him,
He lit it ...
And he was indebted.
Whatever happens I will not make a vow,
Because I know the drums won't beat,
And the doors of heaven will be closed,
In the face of a mad man.

I know that You will never leave me alone.
Especially in the black days,
I am walking and Your hand is blessing me,
You're the eye that never goes to sleep,
I came from the soil ...
When the hands touch me, I become dreams
No one can obsess me,
If he makes a difference,
Between Jews, Christians and Islam.

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BURN ME WITH YOUR LIGHT

2005-02-28T00:04:00.000-08:00

BURN ME WITH YOUR LIGHT

Burn me..
Burn me with Your light,
Baptise me again in Your seas.
I always love to see You
Bless me, so I can fulfill Your desires.
Draw me a sword against the slavery,
A reality coming out of a dream,
Exploding all kinds of love and feelings.
Make me a song on people's lips
A dove, with a peace mission.
Oh God!...
You're always on my mind.
Blow me a cloud wider than earth
To rain crops everywhere,
To blow the hate away;
And decorate baskets, instead
By the waiting flowers
On the children's lips.

Plant me a palm tree in the faraway desert,
So I can be the shade in the hot days
And the water for a thirsty person
Whom is lost between yesterday and tomorrow.
Oh God!...
Help me to tow the red crosses,
To change slavery to freedom,
To throw away the bitter cup
And let the fanatic admit
That You are the One
The unbreakable One
Between the human sects.

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BUSINESS

Business,
Business is the faith today,
Between the hands of some hopeless men,
Sheiks, Priests and Rabbis.
On their lips, the word " GIVE " is printed out,
To collect millions in their pockets.

I dug the surfaces of the world,
Till my hands burnt,
I found this life full of hatred,
People, cheating each other...
The child without honour,
Shame all over her forehead,
O, God..
Let me tell You what happened!...
I went everywhere
To know why the miscreants vanished
From the streets
And became numerous in our temples!...

I saw the man with my eyes
Roving between the religions,
Once he believed in the Bible
And once in the Koran.
He thought Your religion was only words
And Your Books were sent for no reason!.
Millions of miles are between You and him,
And jumbled faith...
He thought he could get away with his lies
And satisfy You and us,
But he was only pleasing the devil.

I saw them drinking wine in the mass,
To spread the faith
And I saw them prohibit it for people
And pretend, it's stronger than poison.
I saw things which could not be measured,
In quality and quantity,
Became basic to religion
And their ceremonies depended on them,
God, the Creator of many human kinds,
I cannot believe that the origin of this world
Has been made of one " Father and Mother ".

They told me not to have a headache,
Not to be too conscientious,
They served Your mass!!...
They called for prayer to wake the world!!..

They told me many scary things about You,
About the fire of hell,
They asked me to calm my poetry
And to regret my past...
Oh Lord ! Believe me, I know,
That You are suffering like me,
Of a world which is not honorable anymore,
Its religions are struggling against each other
And still in heaven dreaming on...

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BETWEEN US

Between us, is only a blink of an eye,
O God!...
Do not think I have forgotten,
I can see You right here with Your full hands,
I see You with two wings of a pigeon,
And that we are flying in very difficult moments.

Between us, is only a flash of lightning,
That quickly disappears
And no matter if it burns
The forehead of the east,
The clouds that were built up,
Will walk over it like a flood.

Between us, is only a spirit,
Separating me from my sins,
From this world
Which is full of wounds
Wherever I go,
And however far I reach
Its plains,
Mountains and valleys
Continue repeating the same scenery
In front of me.

Between us, is only a scream ,
Forgive me Lord , forgive me please !...
Whatever mistakes I have made in my life,
Whatever I have betrayed in the sunlight ,
You will be always the only Father ,
And I will be waiting here for You to call me .

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